22.12.2019

you know

when you have to tap your nails against a hard surface

bite harder

so that your cheeks get stuck in-between

and in the end there’s blood

but its okay

because that’s exactly what it is

curse words in cursive writing

written inbetween my thighs and in the back of your knees

there’s no need to get anxious

or fall in love

accidentally

but for me it happens so naturally

a little too easily

when something just clicks

someone clicks

or stands in the bedroom naked

and i wonder if you get it at all

that i still have my mouth open

heart open

on all fours

only if you ask

for so long that it makes me sick

all of a sudden i can’t remember anything else

other than thighs and shoulders

the back of someones knees

being held up against bedroom walls

cheeks getting stuck inbetween teeth 

biting down harder

i wonder, if its the same for you now

or if it ever has been

have you ever taken the wrong train in the morning

when you just stopped to think

how to get through all of this

because i still need your teeth around my organs

curse words in cursive writing

written inbetween thighs

the back of your knees

as you stand in the bedroom naked